Saturday 31st December 2016
Yesterday was a nice day, I felt much better when I got up, I think I realised that I hadn't been feeling great for the last week or so, I think it was bringing my mood down, I think I managed to stay positive in front of everyone though over Christmas.
We dog walked in the morning and in the afternoon I got myself a new wig, the original wig looks lovely but after wearing it for a while it pinches my head and it's hot and scratchy. Anyway I went back to the wig lady and she showed me a different type of wig which is lighter weight, it looks like your own scalp where the hair come from. She found a hairstyle that looked exact the same as my hair before it fell out, it was strange when I looked in the mirror, it was me looking back, that pleased me. When I went home my husband was amazed at how it looked.
I had a nice dinner in the evening and I really enjoyed it, it was probably because it was the first day without antibiotics, steroids or the stomach injection for ten days. It was nice to feel hungry again.
I didn't sleep well though, I don't know why, but I got up today and got on with things, we took the dogs to the beach for a nice walk, our friends can't come for the meal tomorrow because they both have colds, that's a shame because we'd got everything in and mostly ready.
So it's a quiet new year for us, I don't mind but I feel sorry for my husband, we've been invited to our neighbours, most of the village are going but we will give it a miss because of infection risk, it's the week I shouldn't go in crowds.
Today I feel good, but I have feeling of anxiety for some reason, I can't put my finger on it, I think when this weekend is over and things get into some sort of routine things will settle down.
Maybe my daughter will have the baby soon, if he's not born by 10th then she will be induced at 2pm, my third chemotherapy session is at 11.30am that day. We will get to see him some how.
So I'm sitting here New Year's Eve waiting to see the back of this year, it's been such a bittersweet year, lots of good things have happened, but I need to move on and not look back now. That's it I'm going to see if I can post this as it hasn't let me the last three attempts.
Stop this ride...I want to get off!!!
