Wednesday 23 November 2016.
Today has been good. I still had a lot of what if's, but after a shower and tidy around I ordered a sleep cap and a soft beanie hat for indoors, just so I don't scare anybody when I answer the door after my hair falls out, then a woolly hat that looked nice for outdoors one that wouldn't make my head look too small. My husband has always said I've got a 'pin head' in jest of course, hats are always too big on me, but my thick hair always made up for it. The chemo won't help the 'pin head' look!
We headed of for the hospital appointment,walking the dogs on the way on one of our favourite walks. The appointment went really well, it was to meet my oncologist as my chemo has been moved to a hospital nearer home (but still a 50 min drive away) I am grateful for the move as the hospital staff were wonderful and the drive is much nicer, along the coast road. The consultant explained everything in more detail, and also told me that it looks like the cancer has stayed in the breast as all the scans are clear and nothing showed in the lymph nodes on the ct scan. I was speechless! Absolutely speachless, I know this is a fragile place to be and that things can change in a heartbeat, but at that moment in time it was good news, and very welcome.
I've got to go back tomorrow for the pre chemo health check and talk, but for once I'm not scared.
We went for chips after the hospital, I have a healthy diet, but I didn't care I was having those chips with cheese on top. I sat in the car with the windows steaming up with my lovely husband and two dogs I felt content, it's been a while since I felt like that.
We walked the dogs on the beach and headed home. My house is not as tidy as it usually is because we seem to be living in the car, but it really doesn't matter.
That's it...nothing really earth shattering today, apart from the good news of the scans, but I'm aware that that could be snatched away, but in 48 hours I will be fighting back, it will have started, I will have had my first chemotherapy, and as crappy as I might feel, I'm imagining those cancer cells are going to be feeling a lot worse, that's what will keep me going. Time for those squatters to move on out of my body!
Thank you so much for slowing the ride...that I want to get off.
