Thursday 29th December.
It's been a strange couple of days. I woke up yesterday and thought I still had hair, it felt lovely for a few seconds and then I felt my head...Yesterday the weather was glorious so my husband decided it would be good to go to the beach and meet up with our friends and have lunch in the pub there. To be honest I really wasn't that bothered about going I felt a bit weary but I want him to have some normality so we set off with the dogs.
Our friends knew that I'd been in hospital on an antibiotic drip because of an infection and they knew my situation regarding chemo and not being near people with colds, well, when we got there I said I won't hug you, just in case, then she said, oh I woke up,with a sore throat this morning, I just felt deflated when she said that, I couldn't believe it. Anyway we carried on with the walk as it was outside and I figured that the breeze would help and I'm probably so full of antibiotics that nothing would touch me. I finish the tablets the hospital gave me tomorrow, so far I feel good. We had the lunch anyway and sat chatting, it was nice but I still had that feeling of being an outsider, with them talking about plans for the next year, holidays etc, but it's getting easier. The chemo won't go on forever.
Today has been a 'nothing' day, we had holiday makers coming so had to stay in to meet them. I can't believe I let my husband clean the accommodations without me checking them after, he's very good and has always helped out in the past, and he insisted on doing it as he didn't want me catching anything while cleaning, I was really touched that he did it, I didn't go and check it over because I thought it might hurt his feelings if I did. I need to chill about things a bit more, so I started today.
I spent the day doing an online shop and ironing and housework, and that was it, I had a mini wobble half way through the day when I got fed up with the wig and couldn't tie my scarf right, that set off the negativity, but I kept imagining the treatment done and moving on with things.
My grandson was due today, but nothing happening there yet.
I'm so looking forward to visiting them when he's born.
That's it for today.
Stop this ride...I want to get off!!!
