so I have been awake since 2.15 my head is going round at 100mph . I don't want to be starting this journey as I just don't know how it will end .
Having only told my oldest child about the breast cancer yesterday as she was on holiday and came home yesterday .
The poo poo has hit the fan for me this morning I keep telling myself to be calm its all going to be ok but I am just worried they are going to find more then they expected once I am on the operating table .
