Saw consultant today. MRI scan shows two 6cm tumors and several other clusters so cant save breast. He said mastectomy and expandable implant.
How does a 3cm on an ultrasound turn into two 6cm tumors. I think that was the shock. Went on my own as had no one to come with me, and its not the place for my 12 and 14 year old.
Its tough going, feel more alone then ever, few tears today.
im 42 years old and now feel, who will love me now. I know people are going through a lot worse than me, and I don't want to come across as selfish but its just too much at moment, ended a 8 year relationship last year, he phoned to tell me how great his life is, and my mum passed last year, which i still raw.
This was meant to be my year, my friend and I only joked about it a couple of months ago now I'm spending most of it in and out of appointments.
I know I will go with the flow, and do as they ask but I'm tired, I'm emotional and I don't think I have the strength. I have been a good person, so why?
