hi,
so day 4-7 BEACOPP is done! Back to hospital in the morning for day 8 chemo. It has been surprisingly successful thus far, I am eating soo much getting a fourth meal everyday. always hungry.
i seem to be strong throughout the day with real desire to do stuff but then, some complete crashes where I fall asleep somewhat unexpectedly. Feel tired... But agitated.
some more interesting things from the weekend, what did we do that for in the rugby! It was the most ridiculous stumble to a loss I have seen.
Nic and I went on our wedding menu taster. This was a stressful episode as I had been doing the usual avoiding the world but was then put lots of people. Then it was the list of items that I shouldn't be eating/drinking
prosecco, white wine, red wine
Alcohol is now specifically meant to be avoiding on procarbazine, Not sure any of these tasted normal, although maybe they just need upgrading from the house.
starter smoked salmon, charcuterie board, chicken liver pate. All of these I should be avoiding as they are smoked foods... Risk!...
everything was lovely but then feel on constant edge that I am reacting with every twinge in stomach, or funny taste in mouth. So much psychological stress over the simple things when it's meant to be about enjoying these times.
Got to power through
