So 1 year ago I received the results confirming that I no longer had any signs of cancer, can't believe that a whole year has passed.
I'm back at work full time, but life is certainly not normal...
To begin with I struggled to plan ahead of my quarterly review sessions, and then in August I felt like I had maybe turned that corner, booked honeymoon for Jan and started to try and get fit(ish) again.
Well a few weeks later and I was having a blip, feeling tired and rundown everyone around me was getting sick... But I was not, needless to say brain had gone into overdrive, with worry and fear taking over. I know that it makes no sense, and after a minor breakdown I brought my November review forward.
Relief by talking about it and confirmation from the oncologist that everyone has their blip, unfortunately my ESR blood test came back high, followed by the same 2weeks later. And so I had another CT/PET scan this week, and 1 year on I sit and wait for the results.
I intended to celebrate but instead have just sat pondering what's next. No longer having cancer is certainly not the end of the journey.
Friends/family if you're reading this and I have not spoken it is because I do not wish to worry you, as a test is just a test and it does not indicate that bad news will follow at least that's what I tell myself.
