I really don’t know why I’m putting myself through all this crap.
In the beginning I was fighting to get my life back to some normality, get back to work and carry on as normal...
haha .... then I lost my job (incapability of doing my job),
Ok so maybe fate was sending me in a different direction ... these things happen for a reason. I still have my house,family and friends to live for....
Jeez now I really…
So many times I’ve logged on to write something on my blog or to ask a question on the sites and my mind goes mad with thoughts that I just cannot put into words. I read what other people are going through and I end up with all these emotions coarsing through me and I log off without writing a word. My family and friends have always said I’m the sensitive one, I like to help people, I like to show them that life…
The last two months have been so chaotic that I have had to remind myself that the reason for all this mess in my life is because I’m fighting for my life. This isn’t just a quick stop in hospital and it will all go away illness... if only!!
Getting to the point of being able to have my SCT in October was a challenge I quite happily took on and when I finally heard the words were going ahead with it, I felt…
Apologies for not writing in my blog...
The last month has been so full of appointments with so many different doctors and consultants and tests ready for my STC that there just never seemed to be time to just sit for two minutes and type out all the emotions I’m feeling.
The endless lists of things I needed to get together and conversations with friends and family that I didn’t want to have but they needed to…
Making decisions has never been one of my strong points...
Anybody who knows me, knows I’m the people pleaser. Every decision I have made for as long as I can remember has always been based around keeping as many people around me as happy as possible even if it meant squishing my own thoughts to the bottom of the pile where they tended to get lost or forgotten amongst the more louder verbal opinions of others.
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