Good Friday

I'm so sorry your family has to go through this. At 23 years old I lost my mom to brain cancer in September. Most days I feel completely lost. I used to write my thoughts in a journal and it helped. During the days I would be strong for my mom and put on a good face, but at night I would fall apart and just write in that journal. It helped especially on days when I thought I didn't have anything to be thankful for or to find a positive in the worst situation. I would always be so afraid knowing one day it was gonna be really bad, but I would always live in the moment and be thankful when it was a good day, always telling myself today was a good day we spent time together laughing and shopping i'll worry about tomorrow when it comes.

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's hearbreakjng at any age, but especially when you're so young. I can relate to that, I lost my dad when I was 23, but the circumstances were so very different. He had a massive heart attack, which was completely unexpected. In the 3 months that followed we had 3 other family bereavements, my car was stolen and my brother wrote his car off, whilst his pregnant wife was a passenger. Believe it or not I kept it together, that was until the kettle broke. It was then that I lost it and sobbed and sobbed - over a kettle. The months that followed were a blur. I always think of that year of 'firsts', the first Christmas, the first fathers day etc without dad. Then suddenly it's a whole year, things still seem so raw, but now it was the second of everything. I can't say when it started to get easier, but it did, eventually. A bereavement is not just the loss a loved one, it's all the things that they never got to do or see. There is always something, no matter what age. I reminded myself of that on many occasions, and for some reason I found that a comfort. I'm waffling now, but can reassure you that things will get easier for you in time, and don't be too hard on yourself. Take care.