I'm sitting with mum on my own writing this today. Arrived about 1pm, my brother had been here since just after 8.30am. Mum was asleep, but there was a noticeable difference in her breathing today. This is something I've almost been looking out for, another sign that she is nearing the end. She's been quite settled all day, just a little agitation, but nothing really to talk about. That is, until my brother went to leave, and there was a definite reaction. Was it because he was fussing over her, giving her a kiss and she found it irritating? Or was it because she didn't want him to go? Or was it because she did want him to go? No way of knowing so we just have to do what seems right at the time and not torture ourselves about it. Whatever happens, both of us have been here for mum every day. My brother chose to leave but he was really torn. It was no surprise when he turned up again. So now we wait again together, and for now, mum is settled.
