Disappointed I wasn't at hospital this afternoon when lady from hospice came to speak to mum & my brother. I would have liked to hear first hand what's on offer, I was supposed to but my brother didn't call me. Have found he hasn't been taking everything in & mum is dosed up on morphine so not sure of full facts. Hospice can only take people for 2 weeks apparently, but mum & brother have contradicted themselves. If more than 2 weeks care needed it's done at a care home. Or you start at a care home then transfer on when nearer to the end. So does that mean patients still alive after 2 weeks have to leave? That surely can't be right. I'm angry at my brother for not contacting me but I know it's not his fault. I suppose I just want to be angry at someone. First things first though, they have to sort dosage of pain relief for Mum. I suppose things will move on as and when. More waiting.
Took the lads to see mum tonight, they were both upbeat and think mum enjoyed seeing them both. My nephew came with his girlfriend, and lots of catching up and general chit chat took place while mum dozed. Every now & them she would join in and say something or smile at us, she was listening to it all, but just couldn't keep her eyes open. It was a lovely visit considering, the boys were happy they got to see her, and I felt relief at how it went, it may be their last memory of her. But it's not about them, or me.
