Struggling now given the all clear

Hi Holly,

Warm welcome to the club no one wants to join...

Far from being stupid the way you are feeling is totally normal even this far down the road. The biggest fear anyone has post treatment is the fear of recurrence - Especially after they sign you off and take away your safety blanket.

You will be hyper aware of any twinges, aches or anything that feels different as it brings back all those worries you faced when first had symptoms - so hard to put all all you have been through in a box and forget about what has happened.

There is a group here you could join if you feel it would help Life After Cancer Group (clickable link) when the page opens you can select the discussions tab to see what topics have been covered.

There is also a very good paper produced by Dr Peter Harvey After the Treatments Finish: Then What ? (see below) it is a bit drawn out but a very good read to help you get your head around what the heck just happened. It certainly helped us perhaps it could do the same for you ?

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Hope this is of some help, take care, G n' J

Thank you so much, I will take a look. The problem I feel for me was there were no symptoms. It was all the result of a smear test. I just never expected to feel like this as you say, so far down the line.