Blog number 2. I realised today how angry and upset I came across yesterday and it’s not that I am not, it’s that sometimes I find things difficult. I find the mornings the worst and by the afternoon I’m usually ok. I’m trying to realise that I’m still me and that cancer is just a small part of me. I need to learn to cope with going out. I feel self conscious because of the no hair thing but was out for most of yesterday and part of today. I think as I have been severely neutropenic because of intensive chemo I got used to staying in. I am trying to make myself stronger, hardier and to realise that I have life and that’s worth fighting for - I’ve also discovered Kalms - valerian - and think they are helping with my anxiety - hooray!
