Hi
I am still shocked that I have joined a Macmillan online community, just 10 days ago I was living a normal life doing normal things unaware that I even had cancer. I had surgery booked for a radical hysterectomy due to post menopausal bleeding. I even scoffed at this suggestion as I haven't even had my menopause, I was convinced this was a waste of nhs money but as I no longer needed my reproduction system and I had had problems in the past I would have this surgery. Just 48 hours ago I was dealt the terrible blow that the tumour that had been found connected from my ovary to my ureter was cancerous.
I literally move from making a drink to have a total melt down, crying and panicking about what will happen if I have to leave this world, I have no idea what stage I am at, what is going to happen and how will I cope. My consultant tells me I am so,lucky, this has been caught in good time and the prognosis is good. The internet says some women survive 5 years and some 10, is this good?? I feel short changed , I want 40 years...
I feel panic stricken, my next appointment is 25 th January just a few days really but it seems a life time away. I know I must have a list of questions to ask but there is only one that I can think of, there is only knew question that matters but can I cope with the answer.
I have read blogs and this has been a tremendous help, I'm not alone, my feelings are normal. The few words that I have read have calmed me down, thank you everyone for being so honest. I never imagined I would join this club, I never though that I would be a member.
