WELL UNTIL I COME TO BED THAT IS!
SERIOUSLY what is it with me! All through the day I am literally struggling to stay awake! My eyelids feel heavy and i feel myself dropping off. In the evening while watching tv I begin to drop off.
BUT
I walk up the stairs and brush my teeth and jump into bed AND it's like a bloody switch has been flicked and I am wide awake!
Do I enter a parallel universe when I go up those stairs? Does everything go into opposite mode? Or am I just losing the plot!?
Whatever the answer I am so fed up with it. I want to sleep, I need to sleep, but something is stopping me! I know the pain meds are probably the cause of my drowsiness during the day, but then why doesn't it work at night? Is it some weird side effect whereby it only causes drowsiness when you are sitting up, as soon as you lie down you wake up! I'm like a tiny tears doll in reverse......although I haven't started wetting myself yet! So there's still hope for me!
I'm to think that my body has just decided that sleep is overrated, I mean who needs hours of sleep every night, when you could be doing more interesting things like shopping on line or posting on here! Sleep is just a waste of time!
Except it's not a waste of time and i would give anything to be able to sleep through again. This lack of proper sleep, really is like torture! The question is who is torturing me? Is there someone I can blame? Or maybe just maybe the answer to all this lies within! The problem is I'm not sure how I work it out!
Fingers crossed a session or 2 with the counsellor will bring some sleep, assuming I don't drop off during the session!
