Hi all this is my first ever blog so forgive me! , Iam 45 years old and been recently diagnosed with Mediastinal B cell non hodgkin lymphoma. I have just completed my 8th round of RCHOP chemotherapy. within this 6 month period i had a reaction to retuximab and neutropenic sepsis 4 times, which means i now take regular GCSF injections. Over the last 4 rounds my nausea and vomiting has exacerbated even though my consultants have given me every antiemetic under the sun. it has got that bad that when i think about further scans and treatment makes me feel nauseous. When i walk onto the chemotherapy day ward, the smell instantly makes me ill with nausea and vomiting, and even writing this blog is quite difficult. Is this all in my head? am i to blame? am i going mad? Has this happened or is happening to anyone else? did you get round this? please help by letting me know what happened with your situation.
i can assure you i have been of sound mind for the past 45 years, honestly!
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