Hi everyone!
I'm not really sure what to do here, but I thought I'd give it a go.
My dad lost his battle with cancer in April of this year, after having a melanoma scare 3 years ago but it came back with a vengeance Christmas just gone.
My dad was the first member of my family that I've lost and it's really hit me hard. My dad was my constant in my life. He was the most amazing man. It's been just under 6 months and I'm still going through a whirlwind of emotions. I've always been that sort of person that is a closed book; I've never really been open with negative emotions, as my general persona has always been that I'm happy all the time, and I feel bad breaking this to tell people that I'm struggling. Plus I don't want people to feel awkward; they can't bring my dad back.
He was only 66. He had such an active lifestyle (apart from when he broke his hip). He had me when he was in his early 40s, but I still thought he'd live long enough to meet any children I had and spend hours reading with them like he did with me. It just seems so unfair. I go through stages of being so angry at the fact he's taken away from me, then I'll end up in tears listening to the song he was cremated to.
I'd love some tips on how to get through the grief, slowly but surely. I know i'll always grieve and my love for him will never go. I just get so upset when I panic and can't remember what he looks or sounds like :(
Some tips would be really appreciated. I already feel a little better for writing this blog post.
Beth x
