I am now on day 4 of cycle 4 and so far I feel okay. I am tired, my taste buds are shot, I had extreme diarrhoea during the night, from 10pm until 1:30am, but after 4 loperamide it has eased off. My teeth hurt, as if they have been banged, but I remember this from other cycles, so I know it means nothing and will pass in a few days. I am not throwing up, which is a big bonus and hopefully down to the new anti-emetics, but they are also responsible for me being up in the night, so it is a fine balance! It is amazing how quickly and easily we accept these strange changes as normal. My biggest frustration is definitely food; I love food, cooking, baking, but especially the tasting and eating. I miss that enjoyment, that simple pleasure more than anything else at the moment. It all smells beautiful, but the taste is just nothing like the smell. I know it will come back though and I just need to ensure that I eat, irrespective of enjoyment. I need to keep my weight stable to get through this and what is to come. I am fine and almost half way through the chemo. I know that I can do it now. That said, I am also waiting for the sickness to set in again, when my 'woe is me attitude' will step in big style. I'll try to update my blog, but I get so fed up of moaning, that I will no doubt miss most of the month again. Good luck to any of you that are also going through this. I know some of you do very well, but others really struggle. My thoughts are with you all. Xx
