wish that I could go back in time and maybe not say the things I did or wish I had done .
I wish I could get rid of these feelings of sadness that eat at me every day I wish they would just go away .
I wish that I could feel better and not feel so lost inside .
I wish I had said what I meant at times instead of keeping it all in .
I wish this cancer would go away and I could feel like me today and everyday .
Instead I feel alone and sacred of what is to become .
I am not scared to die and sometimes I wish I could cry .
I am strong on the outside but inside I am screaming why me why do I have to have this horrible disease .
