The Butterfly Who Flapped Too Hard

  • The pay-off

    So, if you follow my blog in order then a couple of things..... 1 - you weirdo! 2 - I'm sorry! 3 - you'll know I was heading out last night. If you don't follow my blog and have just come across it.... 1 - Run away! 2 - I went out last night. lol

    It's the first time out since my latest RAI, which I'm still suffering from. Naps are once again the majority of my life, and everything I want to do around the…

  • Fun and Fundraising

    I made it!

    I managed to do everything I wanted to while in London, and pushed mysef as hard as possible - to the point of tears a couple of times - and nothing was ruined or missed out because of me! It was so lovely to be with my friend and her awesome kids for a whole week. I used to live right around the corner from them, so popped in or went out with them regularly. But I'm now a 4 hour or more drive away from them…

  • Fake Friends

    F*ck them!


    I have something stronger in mind, because I am both raging and in tears, but I've been whapped before for swearing on here and I don't fancy it again.


    But seriously. F*ck them!!!


    You know what? Trying to navigate your way through a cancer diagnosis and the treatments on offer is not easy. In fact, it's bloody difficult sometimes. You're told that this is what's happening inside…

  • The joys.....

    Of crawling up the stairs to the loo.

    Doing your business.

    Wiping.

    Finding blood.

    Then having no idea if it is coming from your urethra or your vagina - or heck, maybe both just to be extra special. Both are possible at the moment, neither should be happening, one I'm on tablets to stop happening.

    How ridiculous!

  • A song

    For those who have read the rest of this blog, you'll have seen where I spoke about music and lyrics. Well, I heard another one tonight that I felt like sharing, as it was something I needed to hear and so I figured others might too.

    You can find the music here and the lyrics are as follows:


    "Feeling broken
    Barely holding on
    But there's just something so strong
    Somewhere inside me