Bleugh!
That's quite an accurate description of me right now I think.
So after that really busy week in the theatre, I had to try and take it easy and recover a bit. So Sunday and Monday were spent doing nothing at all. However, The overwhelming tiredness is back again, and I'm having naps during the day that I thought I was rid of, and when I wake in the morning it feels like someone has sneakily filled my veins with lead while I slept. On top of that, the slashed pain is back - right under my shoulderblades, on the right hand side more than the left, it feels like someone has shoved a red hot knife in and just drawn it from side to side. On top of that, I've been getting migraine headaches with flashes in my eyes and waves of nausea that like to sweep over me as if to try and wash me away in puke. On top of that, my feet and ankles are stinging and hurting again too.
So with all of those health complaints, that I'm guessing has been brought on by the busy week and a bit I had, I'm worrying about next week. I'm meant to be heading to London with a friend and her kids to see some shows and go to the Harry Potter experience thing. But I'm TOTALLY stressing out about not being able to cope with everything and ruining it for everyone. Next week is going to be a lot more physical than this last week was, and if I barely coped with that then how can I hope to cope with this?!
And then on top of that - I get my TG blood result back, and the last dose of radiation hasn't decreased it at all. Whichmeans that the RAI was a waste of time - in my eyes - and all it did was make me feel AWFUL, and ruin the little health, fitness, and life I had scraped back from the last one.
So with all of that going around in my head, I need to try and get the house sorted for them arriving, so it doesn't look like a pig sty. Then I need to make sure they all have somewhere to sleep for the night they're crashing here, and I need to bake some things for folks.
Problem is, my head has gone into shutdown mode as well as burst into tears at any moment mode. So just feeling totally fed up, really demoralised, and very emotional. Hence.......
Bleugh!!!!
