Hello everyone!
It feels right to start with an introduction and why I'm here.
My name is Miss Blue. I'm a 31 (nearly 32!) year old secondary school teacher.
Last April, my Stepmum was diagnosed with stomach cancer. She fought through the treatment which eventually became ineffective, but sadly lost her fight on 18th January this year, aged 52.
My 88 year old maternal grandmother (aka Nan), who survived breast cancer whe she was young, has been in and out of hospital for the past 4 months with issues of fluid building up in her lungs and legs which we now know is a result of advanced ovarian cancer. I found out today (30/1/2017) that she will be coming home from hospital this week with a 24 hour Palliative caregiver.
And my wonderful Mom - who is my everything - was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in May 2016. She's been through chemotherapy and had an operation at the end of November 2016 to remove the cancerous growth. Sadly, the doctors found that the cancer had multiplied and as a result, couldn't remove any of it. My Mom was given a partial stomach bypass instead but had been in and out of hospital ever since as she's struggling to keep anything down. It scares to me to my absolute core that I could lose her.
So that's me. A lost soul, with her own mental health issues, who feels so lonely and so helpless and if she's honest with herself, isn't really coping with everything.
I know no one may ever read this but if you do, please don't judge what may sound like emotional drivel. This is the only place I feel I can get things out of my system xxx
