Just thought I would update my blog as I'm having my 1st radiotherapy treatment tomorrow, I thought it was friday but apparently that was a dummy run to ensure my markings were in the correct place. So I guess I will have a sleepless night tonight, I know I shouldn't worry, but when I was under the machine on friday, I became very emotional, it seemed to bring it home again, I was lying there thinking, this shouldn't be happening to me, I know that I am very fortunate that at the moment i only have to have radio and not chemo, so I shouldn't winge but it just seemed to get to me all of a sudden, since been diagnosed, I havn't 'fallen apart' cried my eyes out etc. etc. didn't dare really, my hubby and family were upset enough so I didn't want to add to it, don't know why now, my 'pet lip' keeps coming out and I just want to cry. I just need to follow advice given, take every day as it comes.
You won't have time for worrying once they start the treatment. The longest part is getting you in position and then the LINAC whirs round very quickly giving short pulses. Keep using the cream they give you though even if you don't feel you need it. Radiation burns creep up very quickly.
Just to say good luck with your treatment. On the positive side, the staff are lovely and you will probably meet others going through the same treatment at different stages that you can talk to to put your mind at rest.
I think when I started radiotherapy it hit home to me that I had cancer, but you just pick yourself up and get on with it. It will be over before you know it.
thanks everyone for your comments, treatment wasn't as bad as I thought but I couldn't sleep so up at 3.30 reading everyones blogs but going back to bed ready for todays session, onwards and upwards as they say !!!
