Not sure what I'm expecting to post here. Am still at the early stages, i.e. four or five weeks, after Sal's (my partner) diagnosis and still struggling to take it all in (the background to where we find ourselves today is in my profile). I guess I'm hoping to find some avenue of expression that helps me to continue presenting a brave front and keeping things positive and stable for my kids, my partner's family and close friends - all the people that have been affected by the last couple of weeks, maybe gain some insight into how I can do things better or get advice from reading and talking to others who have so much more experience than me.
Anyway, I'll post more when I can put my thoughts a little more coherently. Tomorrow is the CT prep before Sal starts her radiotherapy treatment next week, and I'm going with her so perhaps I'll post after that.
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Thank you for the time taken to read and comment my post, Carol. I've been here only a few days really - and I am already finding that the way people share their experiences and support so readily is helping and it's deeply appreciated.
Still finding it a little difficult to find the humour in much at the moment, Liz, but I feel like things are getting easier with the support and warmth shown here. My partner, on the other hand, has starting laughing again. It's not as frequent as it was before the diagnosis, but just seeing her smile and hearing her laugh makes things seem less bleak.
'Calm' is what I'm aspiring too, Cheryl, although at the moment it's a better show of it than I probably feel. But you're exactly right - it's probably what Sal and our kids need from me right now. And I'm learning, as you probably already have, that it's taking the pleasure in the moments where you can; when our 2yo granddaughter comes over, the way things are growing and flowering in the garden, even just sitting together and watching the tv programmes we enjoy together - the hours when, to borrow a phrase, it's about living.
