Hello to every one, I'm not sure what is going on with me, but I feel that I'm not much use to any one on the site. I've tried to help anyone I can with comments which I thought would be of help but I'm not sure I have.
I am having a lot of emotional times, when thinking , talking about my cancer and answering questions from other people about prognosis etc. I don't know it's never been spoken of when I see my oncologist. He says we'll deal with each spot as we need to.
Someone I thought was a friend can't seem to find the time to txt let alone call or visit, when I asked her why the answer was "it's not contrived" what does that mean.
My daughter did so well in her GCSE exams considering all that has been happening this year and she did it on her own, without asking for the special circumstances she could have done, and I am so proud of her.
Everyone on here knows the battle I've had with secondary breast cancer, but what you don't know is when I was first diagnosed in 2007, my husband was recovering from an illness that tried it's damnest to kill him a couple of times and then he was on the brink again with a deep seated pneumonia, and it is only due to the wonder drugs that are available and wonderful dr's that he is still here and we are truly thankful for that but it can come back and kill him, so he has to take drugs every day to suppress his immune system and see's his consultant every 4 mths.
I'm not telling you this so you feel sorry for me, Im trying to explain why I think I'm having so much trouble accepting that my cancer has come back and why I can't seem to get a hold of myself and give myself a good telling off.
Im sorry to say sorry to you all for babbling on and crying on the computer as I write. I'm not going to comment on the site for a while, I'm going on holiday in 2 wks, so hopefully when i get back I'll have got my head straight.
I wish you all well and Ill be thinking of you.
Vee. xxxxx
