Hi All
Well so far I have been very positive since being diagnosed with AML (chemo not suitable) but although today I have been to hosp and all is stable I have decided that the worst thing is the strain of perpetually feeling like I am living in the shadow of the axe! I feel well but my mind is starting to play tricks on me - every little niggle and I worry - is this it? It is constantly there marring my quality of life all the time. I find myself starting to think - oh well if it's inevitable - then might as well be sooner rather than later!
This is the first time I have felt as bad as this - does anyone out there know what I mean by feeling this way?
FormerMember
I'm certain that all of us, at some time, have had unpleasant thoughts crop up in our mind. I'm sure it's all part of the natural process of being diagnosed and dealing with the big C. I have had a few moments where I have just had to let it all out, and I've felt much better after a good old wail. I love coming on this website and talking to other club members who are following a similar path. Particularly to those who have already travelled the journey and come out the other side. Keep up your positive spirit when you can but don't feel bad when you have an off day. It's just the big C trying it's best to have a go at you!
