The waiting is getting to me

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I was diagnosed with lung cancer last Friday in my right lung, they also found what they term as a hot spot on the left side near the lymph nodes in the breast area. The Doctor said he didn't think it was related but they did an ultra sound and I may need a biopsy just to make sure.

On top of this because I have had 2 heart ops in the passed (stretch and then replacement of the mitral valve they did a heart echo to see if my heart can cope apparently they lell me is large (I always wanted to have a big heart although not in the way they mean)

They think they will probably operate depending on the outcome of the tests.

Strange thing is at present I actually feel quite fit physically although mental I'm not so good.

Anyway on Monday I decided I would go into work and try to carry on as normal explaining to people was awful the word cancer strikes fear in everyone (including me) and I didn't want anyone treating me any different it went well  and I was quite pleased with myself.

I hate the waiting for the results not knowing if the "hot spot" is cancer and if my heart is strong enough .

Still I guess there isn't much I can do but wait and be glad that at least I can go into work and try to take my mind off thngs.

Thank you for letting me rant a little - I do feel better for it

Take care all


Love

Val

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Val, just to let you know I had a bone scan a few years ago after treatment for breast cancer and a lot of hot spots were found. The docs told me they were baffled by them and passed the results around a few doctors who agreed that the ones on my face were caused by inflammation - possibly bad roots in my teeth, methinks. The one which baffled them most was on my arm. They sent me for an x-ray which showed nothing sinister. A good while later I was diagnosed with lymphoedema at that point in my arm, so who knows if that was what showed on the scan.

    I have a friend who had hot spots on her spine which turned out to be arthritis.

    I am telling you this to let you know that not all hot spots are caused by cancer.

    I hope this is the case with you and that this has helped reassure you in some small way.

    Best wishes, Christine xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Val.

    I hope Christine is right and that not all hot spots are Cancer.You just have to be patient,and wait on the results. If working takes your mind of the waiting.why not work.All the best and Good Luck.

    Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Val,

    Don't worry about ranting, thats what we are all here for, as an outlet for all of our emotions.

    Its perfectly normal to be anxious and all the waiting certainly doesnt help.

    I hope this doesn't come out the wrong way as I can imagine you being terribly emotionally fragile.

    I'm hoping that you take it and think about it in the spirit that it is intended - But ask yourself -  would you rather them take a little amount of time to get the correct diagnosis so they can treat properly and put your mind at rest if this 'hot spot' is nothing to worry about? Or go in like a game of 'blind man's buff?'

    I know I would rather know 100% for a confirmed diagnosis that trying to second guess the doctors.

    Its good that you went to work, as I'm hoping that it takes your mind off it all for a little while.

    Its very hard to focuss though, I understand that.

    Add me as a friend if you would like to chat more.

    Sending you my warmest thoughts

    Angel

    xxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    rant as much as you like, its good to get it out and most of time you cant rant at ppl you love cos then you feel guilty or you dont want to worry them. remember you are number 1, if you need to get something off your chest ( excuse the pun its unintentional ) then do it whatever way is good for you at the time. keep positive, the waitnig is awful but the news is not always bad and if it is you will find a way of dealing with it. knowing is better than not knowing. best wishes xx