Everything was going to be okay, just a dark tunnel to go through but they always say there is light at the end of the tunnel. Putting on my brave face i took in the fact that it was cancer and that it was going to be a struggle but just kept thinking of how it was just going to take up a year of my life then i would get rid and live happily ever after...but lifes never that easy.
A few days ago i had an appointment with my surgeon whom was going to be removing my stomach. I was nervous because this meeting was to provide me with dates n details of my surgery and losing my stomach honestly scared the hell out of me. I was not prepared for the news the surgeon gave me though. UNCUREABLE was really the only word i could take in. the surgery was no longer an option the cancer was more "aggressive" than first thought and now spread into my liver,
I am 19 how can this be happening to me? What do i do now? How can you possibly functiion knowing that there is something taking over your body and there is nothing you or anyone else do about it.
Worst part...i hate putting my family through this.
Is it a cheek for me to smile when they are hurting so bad? should i go out and have fun? how can life now continue? its like nothing really matters anymore.. i no longer have the light at the end of the tunnel.
