just a quick update to let you know after 3 months of various tests and operations
i finally started my treatment last week.
whilst i thought i'ld be totally relieved and pleased to
be doing something about ridding myself of the cancer ,i find i'm quite the opposite
i'm so emotional ,say boo to me and i'll break down in floods of tears,i can't sleep and am
having trouble eating anything at all .i dont think i'm depressed but am so anxious and a total
emotional wreck.i broke down yesterday at the hospital and again today so my radiotherapist
has arranged for me to speak to somebody tommorow not sure who or what the lady is
but they felt i needed to have a chat and get things of my chest as i'm plodding on trying to act
as normal as i can for the sake of my 5 children.
also whilst most ppl fly thro radiotherapy with little trouble at all its really taking it out of me, i started vomitting
in the early hrs of the morning following my first session then at tea time during the second lot then practically
straight after the third. i saw the oncologist on friday who has prescribed anti sickness drugs which seem to be
helping with the nausea but the fatique and shakes are just as unbearable,he said altho its pretty rare a few ppl are very sensitive to radiotherapy and dont tolerate it very well.
i think at times fighting the cancer is the easy part, its the emotional Psychological side of it that is the most difficult
part to deal with and overcome .
xxxxxxx
FormerMember
Oh Trudy, I really feel for you. I agree the physical side effects can be dealt with, but the emotinal side of things are a lot harder to deal with. Maybe the reality of the situation has kicked in for you. It certainly doesn't help when you are having such side effects from the radiotherapy.
I hope getting to talk to someone will be of great benefit to you. Send me a PM if you want to offload, I'm there for you anytime as you know. Hope it gets a bit easier for you. Love, Christine xx
Aw sorry you re on a downer, its not like you, but thats the trouble, you are like me, we try and put this brave face on in front of the kids and friends etc and sometimes we crack dont we, we are allowed to do this darling, even the most positive of us get days like this.
My main gripe at the mo isnt the radio or chemo but this bloody peg in my stomach, i really wish i d said no, not that i had an option but i could have said look i l stay in hospital the duration of treatment feed through the nose on a drip LOL In fact that would have been far easier then at least i would have been on the premises everyday for this radio !!! A sort of bed and breakfast place LOL Its still sore, weeping puss, they tell me its not infected, but the worst thing is my stomach looks like there are twins in there, so bloated i dont know whether the hole in my stomach is taking in air like a balloon when i laugh or cough but that wasnt explained as a side effect LOL i would defo have said no way !!!!! When i go out i think people will think im pregnant, nothing wrong with that but im 47 now and no partner so its quite a laugh really.
Anyway hope that brings a smile to your face and just to say im thinking of you, chin up, shoulders back and dust yourself down and get back on the pathway of positivity!
thank you so much .you were the first person to message me when i joined this site and have since given me hope,words of wisdom,and advice by the bucketful.
