I don't feel this way very much anymore - I could probably count on my fingers the number of times that I have genuinely been happy on my fingers, since my journey with the big C began in Jan 2011.
But I think this rare moment of genuine happiness makes it so much more special, and feel as though I can really be thankful for that moment. I think what I'm trying to say, is that I appreciate happy moments way more often than I ever would have done so. So while I don't feel this way very often, it's an amazing feeling when it does.
My latest bout of happiness has occured due to an event on the 14th of Feb. 2012. My lovely partner proposed marriage - ahhh! :-) Not only was I left extremely happy (as most ladies would ;), but I was left with a NEW sense of determination to overcome this disease. I think this new engagement has left me with a need to survive to actually START our new lives together. I used to think that this Cancer meant the end of my life. Now it could mean that it could prevent a new one from beginning. And I can't let that happen.
A very HAPPY Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx :-)
