Into week 2........and Diabetes has reared its ugly head again

What a week this has been - Paul as I mentioned came off the chemo last Thursday and ever since then - bar Saturday - he has been pretty awful - he had a great day Saturday though - came and watched both Jack and Billy play footy at different times and venues - then went to the club for a couple of diet cokes with a few mates - home - then we and 8 others went out to Balmain for a long-time ago planned xmas in july - didnt get home until 3.00 - and then even Sunday he was pretty good - went to a sponsors day at East hills Footy Club - and then from there on it has been downhill - he is soooo tired - and last Friday he went back to his GP as he was feeling that tired - and she took his blood sugar levels and there were sky high - 29 - so gave him some stronger tablets to take - but last few days he has been that tired he can hardly move from one room to the next - weight loss is still continuing - last nite he was in the kitchen and said to me "Tan - I am no good" - next thing he was on the kitchen floor - in a heap - I went over to him and rubbed his back - which was where I really realised how skinny he has become - his eyes just looked at me with his look of pleading in them - and kind of glazed -and god forbid - I thought I was losing him - his lips kind of fell open - then I said I would call an ambulance/his sister/brother - just didnt know what to do - the kids by this stage were with us and Jack was rubbing Pauls back as well - was a very strange and kind of special moment if you can understand what I mean by that -but then he came good - I rang his sister Amelia and she came over and we chatted together - with Paul going to bed and coming out - on and off - until 2.00am - his trouble is he cannot sleep - sleeps an hour here and there - so he has gotta be so tired - Anyway - after a few phone calls to the doctor - hospial - doctor - his brother has taken him into Westmead Hospital to see if they can do something for his diabetes - but we were told on the phone that there is not much that can be done to lower sugar levels - surely there must be something! I am sure this is a massive contributing factor to his suffering so much - he hasnt stopped drinking gallons of water - he is eating like a horse which is good - as the weight is just falling away... I am work now - I wanted to take him but he told me I needed to go to work - so we are lucky his brother has taken him as I think it is too dangerous for him to be behind the wheel - I am very very tired and feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster - will I think be a bit easier when the boys go back to school next Tuesday - .... it is so hard for them to comprehend - and I have really missed spending time with them these hols - will make it up to them in the next ones - and Jack pipped up "that is more than 10 weeks away!" - can never win hey! Ok - back to work - Speak again soon xxx