hi everyone , been a funny day today woke this morning feeling very jittery like a panic attack type feeling temp was nomal but i also felt shivery though it was red hot outside. rang oncology they said its more than likely effects of the steriods which i had the last of today thank goodness. felt better as the day as gone on but still a bit shakey hope i sleep tonight . did have a short nap earlier felt better after that . they said the swelling needs to be seen when its happening ,what does that mean ,its still swollen [chest area] ah well i am ok really think i am just having a moaning day today its gone better than i thought so thats good.its a strange feeling consentrating on myself so used to worring about every one else feel strange writting about myself but to get better thats what i need to do the good thing is that my kids understand that now. in the past its been my own fault always put others before myself felt it was wrong to do it any other way realise now that everyone needs some me time to stay fit & healthy so thats my new lesson learned for today taken a while to get there but at least i get it now .i don't have to be selfish but there is no need to be selfless going to close now hope everyone is well take care speak soon love treeezex
