So I spontaneously purchased way too many wigs yesterday !! What fun it was too, trying on all different colours, styles and lengths. I was struck by how exciting it was to change your personality and appearance with a syrup and thought why didn't i do this before ...Hullo I am Ivanka , super spy ..
The shop owners were fantastic, as you would be when a customer happily purchases 5 wigs and accessories, but let me point out this was just a local hair shop and not something labelled and priced at a higher level for cancer paitents. I really don't understand how something can be double the price because you have an NHS voucher ?? Anyway before I get in trouble for slating how people profit from people with cancer ..ahem ....when the shop owners cheerily asked my I was buying my super fine wigs, I cheerily replied too, oh it's as I have breast cancer and I'm awaiting to start chemo so will lose my hair. Cue look of horror on guys face, it's ok I said it's no drama..why do I always feel compelled to soften the blow for others ?
I'm not trying to convince anyone I haven't got cancer and I haven't changed...I have and I will continue to change, so I can't see the benefit of trying to find a wig that looks like me now to fool people. If i find one then great, but I also see it as a way to experiment and take risks I never would with my own hair. My 5 wigs are all very different and edgy - wheeeee
I love my hair, but losing it is part of the course to recovery so thereby you accept that. Does my hair define me ? I don't think so, but it's very much me...i play with it when i flirt, I toss it when I'm happy lol ...i pull it up in a hairband most of the time - why aren't their bad hair day wigs lol ...they would look more natural. my friend said that too lol
I can tell already that my wigs will be hot and pretty sure they will be whipped off in public to itch and readjust : ) But the texture is lovely and i figure if I'm missing flirting with my hair than they will substitute adequately and I can twirl them round my fingers - only not too hard eh ? Places a wig will be a no go ...in the gym, sweaty wig on treadmill is really not a good look ...or in bedroom lol ...sorry to be graphic but hey that's not going to be practical ha ha unless he wants to wear it ;-p
Styling them is going to be important too, as you obviously can't just pop and go ..so a trip to my hairdressers for them is coming lol ...high maintenance buggers - maybe a hat is cheaper and quicker or body paint ? Draw a different design daily ??
Hair is so important to us really, no getting away from it, it shields us from the world, or makes a statement, is our pride and glory , or we blame it for bad days. I am not going to kid myself I do love my hair, like I loved my breast, but I've adjusted well to my new lady boy style so will with this too. My chemo looks set to be autumn to winter so hats and scarves will rock my wardrobe - if I'm able I don't see any harm in trying the cold cap as other women in the group seem to be doing well with it.
So here I am with the most amazing wigs beaming at me from their girls world heads - all prepared and my beautiful real hair still there needs a good pamper until I bid it goodbye...maybe I should sell it to make my own wig - omg that's weirder than weird - lol
