Seems the ten ton truck hit me yesterday and it is finally a reality in my life. The life that has to be completely re-routed. I'm in a big downer at present as I realise that this cancer is real and have to get up my strength to see the oncologist next week (Friday) to see when the chemo starts, what drugs they intend using and the cyclical phases of it. Had to stop the meds they gave me for pain as they caused such stomach problems - now that's all there is for a long time, drugs and more drugs. My life with my son is having to be re thought out and that's the part that is the hardest right now. I have to try feeling stronger before I can think clearly myself - which is not right now.
