Post 261: Emotions rise over nothing.
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On a day where nothing matters
And no rain to fall down my gutters
Why is it a hopeless situation
My participation in administration
Three score and ten plus one for luck
Begging for help ain’t easy it sucks
What can I do I’m all all over the place
I can barely stand it it’s a total disgrace
While I’m asked for a million details
I’m embarrassed but manage to exhale
Can no one see it’s me thats in need
Please press two if you want to proceed
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Still no oramorph used today, that’s the fourth day starting.
Maybe I can get some help for my ESA form today or at the very least to book a slot to chat about it.
I feel ok except for my right arm which has become my biggest problem. I have booked to see my New GP about it on the 19th in two long weeks time. Why is it not sooner?
I say my right arm is the only thing but in reality the slowing down of all my movements and the aches and pains caused by them is cause for concern and for me, a lot to learn. It’s the new me and like it of not is here to stay. My pedestrian ways are not my thing but it’s all I can do now.
Will I ever get back to Work in any fashion?
I’m hoping I can but the mounting signs are saying No you can’t!
Where did it all go wrong? I’m only 61 and act like I’m 81.
I want my life back, and want to live on a while in peace.
Good night
