The first three days i didnt have much to deal with, but the fourth day it started to take effect, constipation nausea aches and pains these are all worse today, everything hurts particularly my feet, however i can do it! i just wish i could sleep i am very tired but i am only sleeping about three hours a day, i would ask for some sleeping tablets but our doctors insist on me attending the surgery and as there is almost an epidemic round here with various viruses i dont fancy sitting in a waiting room for too long.
Never mind i am still positive there are people here with much more to deal with than me, so i will try not to winge, i am not a good patient, i dont have the patience gene 6 months of chemo and radiotherapy sounds forever to me, my biggest problem apart from the obvious is having to stop socialising i belong to a choir and we go round singing in old peoples homes and schools and clubs, i drive the mini bus and we have the best time, i missed all the xmas shows and still cant attend because of the risk of infections, thats a real bummer for me, Shallow aren,t i when so many of you are fighting to survive i,m thinking about singing, i also make the costumes so i need to start on next years soon and ofcourse there is next years xmas concert i am definitely not missing that! So Folks my love goes out to all of you and whilst i am terrified of all this cancer stuff because i am new to it i am going to keep my eyes firmly fixed on the future and with a bit of luck i can be as brave as so many of you are lol Lynxxx
