A new day....

I went to bed last night feeling so much better, in fact I was exhausted from the constant worry and strain. I still woke in the evening thinking oh no I have cancer, but when asleep I didn't dream about it, for that I felt so much better this morning. I am determined to stay happy and positive now after my news yesterday. It has been a busy day and I can't believe it's now nearly 11 o clock! My sieze the day resulted in me food shopping and cleaning! However its a job done! I had a friend visit early on who brought my some flowers and chocolates and great big hug which made my day. My step daughter has come to stay with us for a week for my youngest daughters birthday as we havnt seen her since Xmas, so once she arrived late afternoon it was lovely having a catch up. last time she was here I was in bed poorly most of the time so felt a lot of catching up was needed. The evening was spent wrapping birthday presents ready for morning when I realised just how spoilt my little girl is this year! I must learn to stop buying those extras as they soon Mount up! It has been a great day today and I can only say that it's now that I don't have the anguish of not knowing. I did have the odd moment of what if he missed something and when my own oncologist looks at my scan properly it could be bad news, but I am thinking positively and hoping for the best. it's funny how things change, I have another lump on my leg today, I'm still itching, my mouth feels like it's lost a layer on top with a spot! Under my rib hurts and the pains in my legs are pestering me but today for the first time ever I have not googled what type of cancer could be causing this, for the first time in weeks, I am now putting the logical thought first, I do have sensitive skin at this time of year it is always itchy, I have ran my self down and my body knows it, maybe I do have gall stones which is the pain under my rib, maybe I do have nerve damage from the size of the cyst, but all of these problems seem so easy in comparison to what was going through my mind yesterday. heres hoping the positiveness stays if not for me but my family and it's good news I receive in from my oncologist...... X