Yesterday evening Mo became very tearful and emotional,never seen her like that til now.Normally she is so strong,she will have a good grizzle clocking up the tissues/kitchen twl usage then stop & then its all over.Nothing worse than sitting in another room watching tv, doing normal things & then suddenly hearing someone you love so much crying their eyes out.of course you go in and give them a big hug and a kiss,and then you ask them why they are crying but they are unable to tell you why.Occasionally you might catch the words,worried,scared,frightened or confused but it doesn't help you,apart from trying to talk to them or reassure them theres nothing you can do,its just the cancer.To top it all,yesterday I mentioned in my blog about the 'carer alert factor',twice Mo got up last night both times I wasn't there for her I was sleeping.I felt and still feel guilty and bad because I wasn't there when she was alone and needed me,thats not happening again!!!
