I have been lurking on these pages for quite some time and rarely posted ( well never posted correctly- not sure why I find it so confusing). Thanks to Dave the Brave for inspiring me to write.
I guess it would help if you knew alittle about me, other than my age. I am married and have no kids and work for a charity, . Almost every day I helped people to deal with difficult news and situations and my job defines almost everything about me.
In the last six months I have suprised myself almost daily and this may sound weird but so far the ride has not been that bad, infact some of it has been really good.
GOOD STUFF
I have learned that I am calmer and more resillient than I ever imagined .
That I had great hair, apparently the envy of some, great eyelashes and chemo removes all unwanted hair better than any expensive treatments or creams!
I have long admired those who can live in the moment and cancer treatment has really helped me to do this ( you simply cannot worry about work when you are puking and weeing seemingly endlessly and simultaneously).
Spending quality time with my husband and cats.
I have also realised that there are people really do care about me and this is humbling and refreshing.
Reduced appetite.
Meeting some extraordinary people along the way
BAD STUFF
Feeling guilty about lots of things ( see davethebrave).
Learning to let go of work-without work who am I?
How blooming long the treatment takes
Having time to do stuff but no energy to do it.
I'd love to know everyone ele's highs and lows........
