just when you think your doing well

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i am sitting here shaking i do not know how i feel i cant explain it properly just not right, i am just so easily frustrated at the moment and my mood is awful, its so close to xmas and i worry i am wasting the atmosphere i promised the kids i'd make cakes today but i just cant bring myself to do it or find the strength/energy. i had chemo mon/tues and uptill yesterday i felt ok, last night i started off with a sore neck and by this morning i am sore right down to my ribs especially under my arms, i am supposed to have a nurse come out at some point over the weekend but due to the weather i doubt if she will appear.

do you think i should call her or should i just wait and hope that she appears and if not go to the doc in the morning. i'd hate to think i was wasting her time if it were for nothing. Maybe i'm just needing a rant oh i dont know but i feel bloomin awful.

 

love sarah x x

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I think you should call her - that is what they are there for and it doesn't matter if you do only need a rant.  They have to know how you are feeling and perhaps just talking to someone professional will help you to relax.  Go on lift the phone.

    kindest regards

    Christine

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Poor Sarah - that horrid feeling of not being able to settle to anything; wanting to do things but not having the energy.  And aching all over . . .  I feel the same at the moment but it's mostly my upper arms which hurt and my legs.  Am I right that this was your second cycle?  How long does the aching last for?  I usually find it goes on for 3 days in total, so I'm expecting to feel fine tomorrow.  I do hope you're soon feeling much better - your children are so small it must be difficult for them to understand that you're not up to your usual form.  Hope the nurse arrives soon - and that you're over this very soon and feeling fine in time for Christmas.

    Hugs, Kate xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    thank you for your replys, kate2003 yes this is my second time completly different to the 1st its taken me a few days to get to this stage whereas last it hit me straight away, i just feel so useless. Its hard as my little boy 20months keeps coming up and giving me kisses and cuddles and rubbing my head its heartbreaking, my girls who are 3 & 5 just say you will be better soon eh mummy and my oldest just keeps quiet, the world can be such a cruel place at times. I have a scan tomorrow i just hope i feel a bit better as i dont think i could be bothered if i felt like this, also its 1 month early to its a suprise if you could call it a suprise. I have not heard from her so i will give her a call even if its just a chat on the phone.

    Love Sarah x x x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Thinking of you. Have you spoken to nurse yet ?

    Maggs xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    hi-i agree - you should call the nurse - have you been taking your temperature? how is it? you have to be careful and that is why it is important to keep in touch with your nurse-my nurse told me that they would only be annoyed if i didn't ring them and something was really wrong - they would much prefer to be able to say everything is fine or even for them to check me over - in the long run that is why they are there - to make things as comfortable as possible for us - i hope you are soon feeling better and that you have seen your nurse - take care - karen - xoxo