i am sitting here shaking i do not know how i feel i cant explain it properly just not right, i am just so easily frustrated at the moment and my mood is awful, its so close to xmas and i worry i am wasting the atmosphere i promised the kids i'd make cakes today but i just cant bring myself to do it or find the strength/energy. i had chemo mon/tues and uptill yesterday i felt ok, last night i started off with a sore neck and by this morning i am sore right down to my ribs especially under my arms, i am supposed to have a nurse come out at some point over the weekend but due to the weather i doubt if she will appear.
do you think i should call her or should i just wait and hope that she appears and if not go to the doc in the morning. i'd hate to think i was wasting her time if it were for nothing. Maybe i'm just needing a rant oh i dont know but i feel bloomin awful.
love sarah x x
