I took a call from the hospital today, not good. MIL condition has deteriorated significantly. The doctor told me that she believes time is now very short weeks or days rather than the hoped for months.
I had to tell my hubby when he got in from work and also had to tell her sister in scotland over the phone. Hard hard conversations.
Feeling strangely numb. Have made all the important calls and now we wait for tomorrow when we can take the children in to see her and make plans to bring up sister in law from the care home for a visit. Just focusing on planning and organising.
Hubby is remaining calm and collected, I really don't know how he manages it. Waiting for the floodgates to open.
It was only a short time ago that we thought she was coming home now it wont happen. If she stays stable over the weekend they will look to move her to hospice but it didn't sound as if the doctor was very hopeful even of that.
I think this is what she wants, she's been telling hubby she doesn't want to continue like this any longer. I think that once she decided that and stopped fighting this decline started. Feel sad and angry that this disease has come into our lives but can't bring myself to be sad that the end of the pain and indignity is in sight. Quite simply it's what she wants.
