Five days to go ..... getting really REAL

It was weird yesterday evening as we sat on the sofa for our evening chat. "This time next week I'll be in ICU" says my lovely A. I tried to quell the slight rise of panic when I consider it. Thing is, we have had such a lovely time in the last few weeks - seeing lots of friends and family, going out and doing fun things and chillin' at home that The Big Op has got hazier and more unreal. We've sat and looked at the drawings and nodded in unison at all the important bits of info, been good children and eaten healthily and been walking and done everything they say we should, but like just before you go on a fabulous holiday – the idea that you'll wake up in the morning and fly off to a tropical paradise just doesn't seem like it will ever happen. This is pretty much where I am in regard to A's surgery. Unfortunately for my beloved this particular trip required no surfer shorts and suntan lotion, rather several miles of plastic tubing, a giant dose of anaesthetic and some staples. I know that this time next week the op will be done and we will be faced with waiting for another set of results and start the lengthy process of post-op recovery. And yet ..... I can't imagine that it's ever going to happen. Still, it never ceases to amaze me how large the human capacity to adapt and overcome - it is built into our basic DNA I suppose - and you only have to read the other blogs on this site to realise what people learn to come to terms with and live with every day. In other news, I have stopped crying all the time though (thank goodness) but I know this may just be a brief respite before the storm! For today I will mostly be up to my neck in cleaning products as the house gets shined to oblivion. Then I have to do complicated sums on how to turn my normal veggie chilli recipe into an amount to feed near 50 (I'm going to need a bigger pot!). This evening will be great fun as a gang of us are going for a quick bite to eat at the noodle bar before heading to the theatre to watch the local schools summer production musical. I have to tell you that A and I went last year to see My Fair Lady, and I wasn't expecting much (stupidly!) and we were both blown away by the talent and energy and inclusivity of the production. Any children from eight up are included, and it was the most rip,roaring, fun and uplifting theatre experience I have ever had. Over 200 local youngster really rocked the place. Tonight's venture is Crazy for You, complete with tap dancing (secretly I was a bit of a tap dancer myself not so very long ago) so I am sure I shall be heading home tonight to don my own bow fronted leather capezzio shoes and do a few shuffle hop, ball change, ball changes in the kitchen. Poor A - luckily he knew I was a bit of a loony when he asked me to marry him. ;-) Stay fighting T x