Well after the bad news from yesterday dad seemed to perk up a little when they started the iv fluids he was up for a few visitors last night and also managed to tell my uncle where to go when he was winding him up all lightheartedly. When me and mum went in this afternoon he was sitting up in his bed and managing to have a conversation with us and showed us that the nurses had shaved him because he cant seem to hold a cup or anything just now, which is frustrating him no end for such a proud man to have someone hold his cup and feed him fluid with a straw. We went back in tonight to see him and he was the same as what he was on Saturday, I pray to god that it was just cause he was tired, I hated leaving him but he was nodding off and waking because me and mum was talking so we thought it was counterproductive us being there but it was so hard to leave. His blood pressure is really low and we found out today that he has a place at the hospice but we need his blood pressure to rise before they can move him we dont know how long they will keep this place for him. I was off work today but I am going back tomorrow as I need to get stuff done before I go off when I am needed, I just hope this is the right thing to do. Too many thoughts bombard my brain and I worry myself sick if I am doing the right thing or not. I have to go out of Aberdeen to do training up in Elgin and its only me that can do it and I need to get it done ASAP so hopefully I can get that done. Heres me babbling again apologies.
