Needless to say the steroids never worked a bit, I didnt have high hopes for them in the first place but tried to remain positive. The pain clinic called on Friday they still did not have his blood results yet and they want to see him today so I am just sitting at my desk having lunch before I go over the road to meet mum and dad for this appointment. I am really lucky that I a) work on the main hospital site in Aberdeen and b) that the end of life hospice/pain clinic is just 2 minutes away from my office I could throw a stone there its so close. So now I have the butterflies in my stomach waiting to see what is said this afternoon. I bumped into my cousin who lost a husband a few years ago to cancer she was saying that my dad is near the end as his symptoms is similar to what her husband went through in the last couple of weeks so now I am totally freaked out. Hair getting more grey by the week. I am so tired I have not slept at all the past week I just lie there thinking I even adopted the atitiude at the weekend that if I felt sleepy during the day I would just relax and let the sleep happen, that worked for about half a hour then I was up again.
