It is with much sadness to say that my dad passed away at 6.40am today. He was pretty unresponsive at the end of last week. I found out from one of the nurses on Thursday night that this was the end, I attended a appointment with mum and dads doctor on Friday so mum could be told this news. From Friday I basically never left his side from then, it was the ongoing joke that I had moved into the hospice as I was only at home for a couple of hours on Saturday for clothes. Me and mum stayed at nights taking it in shifts to be with dad during the night so he was not alone. The hospice staff was brilliant with us and dad they always spoke to him in the nicest manner. Yesterday morning me and mum was talking to dad which we done most of the time but he was responding to our touch on his head or face he was lifting his eyebrows. We think that he was putting up a protest last night because me and mum was watching dirty dancing in his room there was some colourful noises coming from dad, we managed to keep spirits high as dad would not want us to be upset. This morning I was coming back to dads room from the relatives room I was having a sleep, I got along to the room and they had just realised he had passed, it was so peaceful, mum was talking with nurses and mum realised that he wasnt breathing he had went that peacefully and for that I am so glad. We spent some time with him then I went to phone my husband and my uncle to come to us. The hardest part was leaving him at the hospice I had managed to stay so strong till that part then I just lost it. I then spent the rest of the day calling family and going to see family to tell them and then I went to the funeral directors to get that ball rolling, I am now just done in everything has caught up with me now and I think it is now starting to sink in that I wont have another conversation with him. His funeral is going to be next Wednesday morning. We have my grandson coming up for christmas day and I have manged to get mum to come to be with us on christmas day as I know the little one will take her mind off things for a while, especially with it being white up here we can play in the back garden.
