Had a fantastic nights sleep on Friday and woke feeling a lot more positive, spent the day just mooching about in my new jim jams watchin telly and catchin up on all the blogs I had missed while in hospital.
Round about 5ish needed the loo so off I trotted, reached round for the loo roll and OMG...the pain was unbearable, managed to make my way back to the bed (if I can just lie down it will all go away) had to pant as pain was worse if I tried to breath normally and the pain didnt magically disappear when I lay down. Panic now starting to set in, I can hear my fab mum in law (an ex nurse) downstairs, then she came up to check in on me and the relief that all would now be ok was immediate. like the true professional that she is she was straight on the phone to the ward ripping strips off everyone who dared to try and stand in her way. Result - bring her straight to A & E, so into the hubbys van (its a big cab so a lot more comfortable for me) and off to A & E but at least I was wearing my new jim jams, 2 doses of morphine and a visit by consultant pain was starting to ease. They decided to keep me in overnight but the ward I had left the day before was full so was sent to a private ward. Own room with en-suite, flat screen tv and wonderful staff, some perks after all. I had managed to twist and trap a nerve in the drain, now I know who to blame, hubby is a builder and went on an immediate guilt trip because the loo roll holder was not positioned at the right angle, could have milked this one for months but the look of mortification on his face made me cry. After watching the travesty that has become the X Factor in my private room for 2 nights finally got re-released today. Got home to find the loo roll holder had been re positioned for my ultimate comfort.
Have spent the rest of the day catching up again on all that I had missed on here and am a bit lost as to what has gone on but it doesn't look good. Tonight I have tried out my softie for the first time and hubby said you would never know unless you were squeezing it (like anyone is going to get that close at the mo lol) and my new attitude to all of this now is the cancer should be more scared of me than me of it cos I'm now the one in the know and it aint invisible to me anymore. This will be like a military exercise (I knew my 5 and a half years in the army would come in useful at some point) seek out the enemy and destroy.
Thank you all again for your wonderful support when I had my mini stumble last week you guys picked me up again and I know I can rely on all of you in the future too.
take care love Terri xxx
