Had a crap night, felt lousy and quite a lot of pain but refused to take any pain killers because in my head that would mean I am going backwards and thats not allowed.
Woke up feeling just as rough so just bumbled about all morning then took son to nursery (he had to go as it was the second performance of their christmas production which I was due to attend) then back and had a lie down to see if that helped. Time was ticking away and fast running to the time I would need to leave to get to the nursery on time. I seriously considered not going but then gave myself a perverbial kick up the rear and reaslised that this was not about me, it was my sons first christmas play and I had to be there, so deep breaths and out into the cold and off to nursery I trotted.
The christmas play turned out to be a performance of Snow White and the 7 Dwarves (am I missing something here), where was the manger, donkeys, wise men........The performance was brilliant with the wicked queens husband refusing to get up and say his lines and throwing his crown on the floor and then all the kids aged 3-4 sang crimbo songs and my eyes filled and throat tightened and I was so glad that I had forced myself to go this is what its all about, wouldnt have missed it for the world.
Back home now and after a soak in the tub still feel rough but not as, so hopefully antibiotics are kicking in and tomorrow will be a much better day.
take care love Terri xxx
