What a let down yesterday was, the build up the sickness and then the let down "sorry the results are not back yet Terri you will have to come back next week", have they no idea that a week feels like a year when you are waiting to know, how bad is, is there a possibility it has spread.
Well I have come to the conclussion that all the crying in the world is not going to make the results come through any quicker so I have a choice stay at home crying and worrying about the ifs and buts or get my act together and try and put it all to the back of my mind.
First time since surgery I managed very slowly to drive my 3 yr old to nursery (his nany has been taking and picking him up for me, many thanks to nanny xx) I admit I could not get the care round corners or roundabouts with the usual ease and there were moments of driver learning that I found myself doing ie passing the wheel through the hands but we finally got there albeit after about 15 mins (normally takes me about 5 lol).
Feeling quite pleased with myself by now so thought I'd pop in to Sainsburys to grab something nice for tea, and managed to grab the other few things I knew we were running short on.
Got back and made a coffee and then rang my area manager and asked if it is ok if I go into work next week even if it is for a few hours Mon, Tue and Wed just to keep my mind occupied and she said thats fine and I can stay either as long or as short a I want to and if I dont feel like it then that ok too, well cant ask for more than that can I. So now I have a sort of plan Im feeling a lot better and might even make a start on the weekend washing as its perfect drying weather here today.
Hope everyone is having a good day.
take care love Terri xxx
