another day closer

Hope you have a good day too.....the wandering around with paper in your hand and not answering the phone sounds like a lot of my managers when I worked in London - what was their excuse I wonder!!!

Take care

Debs xx

Hi Terri,

Something I didn't mention yesterday is the question of 'control'. A diagnosis of cancer sends your head in a complete spin and I remember well that feeling of almost standing outside of myself. It is an unknown enemy and you have temporarily lost control of your life. Everyone handles things in a different way but I found I needed to know all about my enemy and did lots of research. I also felt a whole lot better once I had a treatment plan - it helped me get back that little bit of control. It is still very early days for you but I'm sure once you know where you are 'going', your journey will be so much easier.

Best wishes,

KateG

You are so right Kate, I know that in a weird way I am looking forward to Monday because then I will know all the facts and like you said there will be a plan of action that I can follow instead of just feeling like I am standing still. I have always been in control of everything and now that has been taken away it is sucj an alien feeling. I thought and still think that the best thing for me at the moment is to keep coming to work....though I could do without the 100 mile round trip everyday. I never thought I would be wishing my weekends away but like last weekend this one cannot come and go soon enough and to add insult to injury its my birthday on Sunday so I will have to blag my mum when she phones as I have not said anything to my family as yet.

Take care Love Terri xx

Hi Terri

Wandering round with papers, lol why not.  Glad they are being supportive.

It can be hard to maintain control because decisions are made for you, but as Kate says it helps to research, keep a diary of your treatment so you can plan things for your good days, its important to maintain as much of a routine as possible.

Like you I only told my family once I knew what I was dealing with.... and tell my sister I was having my op the day after her birthday.  Its my 1st anniversary tomorrow - lol.

Take care

Carol xx