Went to GP's to get bloodnurse to do my monthly bloods checking that my drugs i take for Crohn's are not mucking things up...it was last months routine tests that picked up abnormaility that led to recent diagnosis for CLL :(
Ive known this bloodnurse for near on 20 years from when she was caring for me as a nurse after having a bowel resection & was one of the most caring nurses from the old schoo of nursing.
She asked how i was & i said so so, ok & the usual & she detected i wasnt.
It was then i blurted out all thats happened in this last month since this diagnosis & how its been doing my head in & the stress has really messed up my stomache & affected my Crohn's & my eyes started watering as i said i didnt feel in control anymore.
Had a tearful ride home with so many thoughts whizzing round in my head. Does anyone else have this feeling of helplessness at times??
It seems so stupid feeling like this as it isnt going to solve anything.
